My first book, "March Forth," has been getting great reviews on Amazon. This is an incredibly exciting time for me, as I learn more and more about how to market and promote my book while simultaneously working on the second. I'm also balancing all this around two jobs, so it's easy to get sidetracked at times. However, I am working toward my goal of being able to make my living as a writer, and that feels amazingly good.
One thing that's been a recurring theme for me lately is learning to trust the process of life. I've often said affirmations and done meditations about this: "I trust the process of life, I know everything is coming to me in the right time, etc.," but I believed these things to be true in a very active sense. I had to work at believing them.
Just recently, I realized I don't have to work at believing these things. I just have to let go and trust that life is working out perfectly for me.
I guess I can best explain this with an analogy. Recently, I was riding in the backseat of my father's car, and as he was waiting to turn into a busy intersection, I tensed up. I was looking around at the oncoming traffic as if I were looking for a space to pull out in, even though I was not driving. Basically, I was having a stress reaction even though I had no control over the vehicle.
It occurred to me how silly this is, especially since my father was the one driving. I spent countless childhood hours in the backseat of my dad's car, blissfully unaware of the rules of the road. It never occurred to me to tense up because I fully trusted that my father would get us to our destination safely. I didn't have to work at that trust; I didn't even think about it. It was just part of my worldview.
I'm learning to have that kind of relaxed, passive trust that everything in my life is going perfectly, and that I am becoming the best possible version of myself. I really, for the first time, believe that my writing will lead me to where I need to be, and that everything is happening right on time, and there is no need to be impatient.