The day started out badly for me. I've been dealing with anxiety issues lately, which is not a problem I've ever really had before. Much of the time, it feels like there's a fist balled up inside my chest. I do my best to breathe through it and meditate past it, but it can be difficult.
The huge gap between my ideal life (in which I make my living as a writer and am completely autonomous and free to do as I please) and my real life (in which I work 50 - 70 hours a week for other people and have to count on others for transportation because I can't afford a car whilst paying student loans and whatnot) has been affecting me more than usual lately, and causing that hard lump feeling.
(Side note: don't worry, I made an appointment for a physical in a few weeks just in case. Which I can do thanks to "Obamacare.")
So all of this was on my mind as I rode the bus into work this morning. I was doing my best to breathe through the imaginary balled up fist in my chest when I overheard the following conversation:
Man: "You voting today?"
Woman: "Meh. I don't like either of them. Trump's crazy and Hillary's a b**ch. I was gonna vote but I think I'll get my nails done instead."
Man: "Yeah, but Trump's really crazy. You gotta vote Hillary."
Woman: "I'm just gonna get my nails done."
They conversed a bit more, and never once mentioned Bernie Sanders.
Now, I'm a Bernie supporter. I know that's my personal opinion, and you may not agree, but I think he is the most genuine of the current candidates. I know many people say, "yeah, Bernie says some good stuff, but he doesn't have a chance," and I see where they're coming from. But I WANT him to have a chance.
Bernie speaks for the little guy, the guy who can't afford a voice in the current political climate. He speaks, quite frankly, for me.
CNN and other media outlets tell me Hillary has pretty much already won the democratic nomination, and that's fine. I don't have a problem with Hillary. I think she'll maintain the status quo just fine.
But the thing is.... I don't want the status quo anymore.
I want to believe that miracles can happen, the underdog can win, and things can really change. I want to believe that, both in my life and in my country, the obstacles will get smaller and the opportunities will multiply. I want to believe that positive change is in the air.
So, I'm going to go out and vote for Bernie after work. That being said, whoever you vote for, just get out and vote. Make your voice heard. You can get your nails done afterward.